mianwoon

2012-02-17T19:15:00.001+08:00

It's so rare that I actually sat down at the dinning table to eat with my mum. Initially I wanted to tell her about '$180' but at that very instant when I was about to speak to tell her, she told me that she is worried about the household expenses if she quits her job.

Haix like that how am I going to tell her? I will feel so unfilial if I tell her about it cause it would only add on to her troubles:/

2012-02-17T07:18:00.001+08:00

God pls give me your strength. Help me through the it. Give me strength to complete what I have to do.

12.13am

2012-02-14T00:12:00.001+08:00

It's 12.13am now and it's supposingly to be my lights off time. But well I still have not completed my homework which is due tmr so I have got no choice but to continue doing my work:( I am super tired! Eyes are literally closing...

Decisions

2012-02-12T16:55:00.003+08:00

Went for another session ytd cause I really cant take it anymore. Told marcus a lot of things and he offered me a solution that I think it is too good to be true. I really feel like accepting his offer but than again i am just left with a few more months of practice perhaps i can endure it?? Talked to J about it and she told me that perhaps i should talk to the teachers first but the point is will they even understand? Sian...i really hate to make choices!

2012-02-10T12:51:00.001+08:00

我真的好累。好想放弃了。

2012-02-09T13:03:00.001+08:00

No matter how hard I tried to control, tears still stream down from my eyes.

Studies studies

2012-02-08T23:51:00.001+08:00

Went for a math group tuition and I think it's quite not bad except for the fact that it's super far away from my house. So got to spend some time travelling:( hmm but thank god that just now my dad came and fetch me:)

2012-02-07T07:13:00.001+08:00

突然之间真的好想放弃。觉得自己真的好失败！

Tired

2012-02-06T21:43:00.001+08:00

Felt so tired today. I have no idea why but I kept crying and crying. Can't seem to do anything too:/ totally zero concentration.

The emo day.

2012-02-06T14:45:00.001+08:00

Shit happens and I don't really feel good about it. All I wanna to do now is perhaps let out a good cry.

Organic chem.

2012-02-05T18:05:00.001+08:00

Was looking at jasmine's notes while doing the organic chem hw and all of a sudden than I realise actually it is not as difficult as I imagined it to be. Haha perhaps the different school notes really makes a different in understanding the topic.

It's no longer the same.

2012-02-04T22:55:00.001+08:00

Went for my Econs gathering and it was seriously kind of awkward lor.. Hahah it seriously feels so different as the previous one where we went to Chanel's house. Well i guess thats because we barely know each ither..Oh my! I am so hungry now but then again I wanna sleep soon so too bad got to endure:/

Late late late..

2012-02-04T11:36:00.003+08:00

Shucks. I am late for the tutoring session! Ughhh and the stupid bus is nowhere to be seen! Tsk if only I have gotten my license i would have drive there lor.

Driving.

2012-02-02T19:19:00.002+08:00

Finally done with my driving lesson. Otw back home for dinner! Sian should I fixed my group of instructors? The default group of instructors that I have gotten sucks lor. How how how? Fixed group need to pay more and the problem is that I can't chiong for it cause got limited number of instructors in that group.

Pretty much disappointed.

2012-02-01T23:20:00.004+08:00

Such a tiring and long day. Had pe lesson today and we ran a total of 4 rounds around the stadium. First set of 2 rounds timing was 4.50s and second set timing was 4.40s! Woah in a way impressed with the timing. If only my 2.4km run the timing also so good den most probably I will complete the run within 15mins :P

Okay 15mins shall be the target for my 2.4km napfa test:)

Gp was pretty much the same. Haix if only ms lee was our Gp tutor how great that would be. I mean afterall she has been teaching us for the past 2 years and also our pw teacher, she kinds of understand how our class works. Really miss those times a lot.

Next up was Cca open house and I can only say that this year Cca fair is seriously the worst out of the 3 years. It is not as 'exciting' as the previous years where everyone were kind of enthu about it. Well was quite disappointed about it and than later things happened which left me kind of more irritated with the whole Cca fair.

Left school at about 6.50pm and went straight to bbdc for my driving lesson without dinner cause I have had no time for a proper meal after the Exco meeting. Initially thought I was going to be late for lesson but thankfully I manage to reach there 5mins before the lesson starts. Okay so no choice cannot eat dinner den during the driving lesson I can't even pull up the handbrake and my instructor was like eh nvr eat dinner ar? And I reply 'ya! How u know?' so he was like 'ughh nvm la use both hands lor!' omg this instructor seriously damn funny lor.. Keep saying stupid jokes and I keep getting distracted lor. Drove past MI and we happen to stop at the bus stop area cause of the traffic light. Saw ZX standing at the busstop so i told the instructor ehh my friend leh den guess what he do? He go and press the horn! Wah lao joker right? Haha and that blur ZX looked into the car and he was kind of shocked to see me driving:P His lesson is really quite interesting as compared to the other instructors:) hmm maybe can consider fixing this instructor for my driving lesson:) anyway the driving lesson kind of made my day a better day!

2012-01-31T07:33:00.002+08:00

Apparently I thought things might be better after some sleep but that feeling is still there and there's nth I can do to stop all these thoughts.

So far yet so near

2012-01-31T00:02:00.003+08:00

I am really tired after a long day. Some how! I feel like giving up. I really don't see any light for Chem now and I am feeling so insecure/worried for math and phy. Especially physics when I know that there are still quite a number of doubts that I still have in some chapters. Omg! The only subject that I can kind of self study is most probably math. At times I really hate myself for being so stupid...I seriously have no idea why people can understand chemistry so easily but to me understanding it needs like a huge amount of effort lor...or mayb even when I put 100% of effort I still don't get it lor!

Well what can I really do? Common test is nearing and yet I am still so lazy:(

A pleasant surprise.

2012-01-28T21:30:00.002+08:00

Omg! It's so amazing... Went for today's service and I finally felt God's presence! It was really so unexpected. Really didn't expect myself to be able to feel him. At first I thought I was hallucinating but no! I really heard God's voice. Anyway I bought my first bible at the bookstore:) its really super worth it lor! $20 for a bible and a bible highlighter and also a notebook! Initially I was having second thoughts abt buying it but now I am proud to say that I finally have my very own bible:)

Perhaps its time to let go of some pride?

2012-01-27T21:11:00.007+08:00

Had a pretty short day in school day. Haaha cause we only have 1 physics lesson on Friday.Band was quite awesome with jasmine joining us/ helping us for our cca fair:D or perhaps I should say that the time spend in band was exceptionally fast when Jasmine joins us.OHHH anyway left early for the therapy session.

Hmmmm kind of regretted leaving early just to be punctual for the appointment but who knows it was sill not my turn yet and I ended up have to wait for another hour before it was my turn.

Anyway today's session was really fun. We talked about a lot of things and 1 of the key topic was about procrastination. He shared with me a piece of masterpiece:

Mona Lisa.

Guess how long did Leonardo da Vinci took to complete this masterpiece?

13-16years! Amazing right?! Can you imagine the number of times or rather practice he had tried before completing the masterpiece? So...what are the chances of getting to your target with a ONE time trial? I mean as in even the scientists doesnt come out/invent a item within a day right？I believed that a huge amount of time and effort must have been devoted to it before they really succeed right? Therefore the same goes for studies:D

random.

2011-12-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

When was the last time since I last blogged?
Well, guess it doesnt really matter since nobody read this blog. Its holidays now.
But somehow this holiday feels rather weird. Kind of feel that its a waste of time and I just spend my day doing nothing. Plus there's really nothing to look forward to during this holiday.

UGHHHHH....soooooooo pls let the new term starts ASAP! I can't wait to get back to school soon!

2011-09-21T13:02:00.002+08:00

All of a sudden i miss secondary school SOOOOOO MUCH!

life in MI change so much ever since year1 and i honestly do miss those times.. but well things have already pass and that there's no point look back the past right:)

haix right now what i really wish to do is just to study hard and get out of mi asap!

losing credibility.

2011-03-02T22:24:00.002+08:00

Recently a lot of things had happened..things have changed and it's no longer the same as before.

Mum's going to lose her job soon as the company that she has been working for, decided to close down as it was not making much profit.

She long knew that the company was closing down soon, yet she only told me about it during the weekend that has just passed and the reason behind it was because she wanted me to focus on studies and exams instead of all this stuff.Really feel damn unfilial and useless for not being able to share her troubles and instead, i add on to her toubles:(

Dad was like assuring me and mum that he would be able to handle all the household expenses by himself, but even so i am worried that it might be too stress for him to take it.

so many thigns to do,yet so little time to complete them.

2010-06-16T00:02:00.004+08:00

arghh kk i am back...to blogging...

tsk i am seriously so annoyed for these few weeks...too many things on the hand and i have yet to really find time to do each and every single thing that i have planned:(

omgawd i think i am so dead for the upcoming mid-yr exams..
argh especially for chemistry and math..
because i always cant do well in exams for these 2 subjects and i really don't know the reason behind it!!

the worst thing is..i have not been revising chemistry for a period of time already!!

because everytime i see the chem stuff i would naturally close the book and change the subject to either physics or maths.
tsk I NEED TO WORK ON CHEMISTRY TOO before the red ink appears on my subject's report!!
12 more days to the first paper!

ps: i only have such a limted time to take a break and yet u kept wanting me to do sth else...IT IS SERIOUSLY SO ANNOYING OKAY!!

2010-06-01T00:52:00.002+08:00

OMG !! I FINALLY SOLVE THIS QUESTION!!!

spend around 20 mins staring at the question thinking of how to do the question than see the trick to it!!

felt a sense of accomplishment for now!!! wow it is the first time that i manage to solve every question inside the past year paper!!

now the only thing to work on is SPEED and ACCURACY!! because realise that i made quite a lot of careless mistake here and there!!

OKAY...NOW THE LAST THING THAT I HAVE TO DO BEFORE I SLEEP IS LOOK THROUGH MY ECONS NOTES AGAIN!!but i think abit of no use because i don't really get econs very well:(

2010-05-31T18:14:00.002+08:00

HOLIDAY!

haha just now there is a lady calling from i think standard charter bank call and she is super weird la...

Lady: Hello,this is jessica calling from standard charter bank and can i take sometime to ask u some question?

Me: Ohhhh...okay sure!

Lady: Hmm can i know if u have any credit cards under standard charter bank?

Me: Err noo!!

Lady: Okay...than can i invite u to take a look at the different types of credit cards that we have and...

Me: getting irritated cause dont feel like waiting for her to finish..erm I am sorry because I AM STILL A STUDENT!!

Lady: Huh?? u are a student? ****8089 is ur no ar?

Me: YA!!

Lady: u sure not? ****8089 ur no??

Me: YA!! so is there anything else? i got to go!
Lady: kk bye.

LOL!!fancy calling me to ask me if this number is mine -.-

YES!!!it's finally holiday already...haix but got to go back to sch like almost everyday but thank god it is only for the first week if not i rather don't have the break.

2010-05-21T20:49:00.003+08:00

oh gosh...recently had been so busy with my school work..felt so screwed up for this week..nothing seems to go into the right place.

studies and everything..argh!!!well it doesn't matter anymore because after next week i will be haivng a 1 month break!!omg i seriously can't wait for the holidays to come so that i can have more time to study for my promo exams!!

I WANT STICKY!! okays think i shall go and get them after my cip work and den back to sch for the ake concert(:

5 MORE DAYS TO GP EXAM AND
7 MORE DAYS TO JUNE HOLIDAYS!
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i am just who i am

2010-05-04T21:57:00.003+08:00

i really dunno what to say but i feel like crying now..or mayb for the whole of today..i really need words of encouragement from people..'it' just makes me feel so down and i don't know what to say or how to continue..all i can say is i am really tired and i want to have a break from everything..

maybe it is quite true that i am just not the perfect girl that people wants to make friend with..but i am just who i am...i can't change for the sake of everyone.i had tried my best.

2010-04-22T16:48:00.002+08:00

everytime i look at this video i would be damn disappointed with myself..

i am really so envious to those people being able to play w/o the score..its really amazing..and i really wonder how they do it :?

anyway its finally thurs..which means the weekends are approaching(:

i am feeling kind of tired for today..
have to take math and physics test than have to give a presentation for my chinese project which was rush finish the night before:(

physics test was still still alright..but definitely NOT math!! i think i should be falling this math test:( I SERIOUSLY HOPE THAT THIS WILL BE MY ONE AND ONLY MATH TEST I AM GOING TO FAIL..HAIX.

2010-04-06T21:40:00.002+08:00

YESSSS!!! i finally got back my laptop already..haix just got back from sony today! i was damn happy when i receive the e-mail to go and collect my laptop cause they say need 2 weeks but well aparently it was less than 1 week :D

hmm tue lesson is FINALLY OVER!! i seriously hate tue lesson a lot firstly because we end our school at only 4.45pm which is like very late.

Secondly, tue is a very boring day!! all the lesson that i have are all super b.....

Anyway tue is going to be over soon!!! haha..i think i am so going to the central on this fri or if not sat..i want to buy sticky!!! anybody wanna to go with me???

2010-03-23T00:19:00.002+08:00

YYYYEESSS!! I AM FINALLY DONE WITH MY HOMEWORK!!

all those physics questions that are driving me crazy...just managed to complete all those MCQ questions...haix its MCQ man..and i took roughly a hour just to finish 4 questions:(

I seriously can't believe it! 4MCQ-1 hour, 1 MCQ-15mins!!! thats very very long...but well no choice..because we have to present our answer out in proper workings, cannot anyhow write A,B,C,D.

And the worst part is i do not really understand what my teacher is teaching so...i have to like read through everything from my notes again so that i can at least understand a bit of the chapter in order for me to do my hw.

Okay,its already very very late and i am going to bed. Night people! sweet dreams(:

new layout

2010-03-20T00:32:00.001+08:00

sorry people i am still not done with editting it yet. shall update more tmr because my eyes are giving way:( NIGHT people!

2010-02-18T20:19:00.004+08:00

okay i am going to post this in chinese..i know its random..but i just feel like posting in chinese.

今天的我，突然对莫一些在学校发生的事情而感到非常的失望。

我真的不明白学习华文真的是有那么的难或痛苦吗？

为什么有一些人就是不能好好的坐下来听课呢？？

就算自己有多么不喜欢上那一堂课，大家还是得坐下来好好听课，因为那是一种对大家彼此之间的基本尊重。

我自己也不明白我为什么会为这种事情而感到那么失望。。。
要是能够回到像以前的华文班，那该有多好。

Shoes!!

2010-02-13T00:43:00.003+08:00

Today school ends at 11am due to cny celebrations..
and after cny celebrations met up with YB to do some last min shoppin..

and guess what?
I bought another pair of shoes from bugis AGAIN!!

OMG
within these 2 weeks have already purchased 2 pairs of shoes already...and the number shoes that i have now is...
1...
2...
3...
4...
5...
6...
7...
8...
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16 pairs of shoes(:

okay and I should seriously stop buying more shoes because i don't think my shoe cabinet still has got any extra space for more shoes(:

But well I don't know why everytime i went shopping with YB @bugis i would always end up buying 1 or 2 pair of shoes:/

and this is the first newly bought 'school shoes(:

and this!!! the second pair...omg

have been looking this pair of shoes for quite a time already
was actually shocked to find this pair of shoes @ bugis today..because actually i first saw the shoes on a teenage magazine and it states that it could be purchased at far east so i went to far east to get this pair of shoes but well the shop keeper told me that they had already sold out and they are very unlikely to restock the shoes again..

so i thought i would never get to own this pair of shoes:((

hahas but well today i found another shop sellin excatly the same shoes that i wanted(:(:

so instead of buying new year clothes i ended up buying shoes AGAIN!!

ANYWAY, today it's already the chinese new year eve so i wish everyone a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR in advance(:

2010-02-10T22:07:00.002+08:00

okay i am damn piss now!!!

FREAKING PISS OFF NOW..cause my hair is ruined!!it totally sucks!

i dun even feel like goin to sch tmr liao..how to face the world with this kind of 'bowl' fringe!

shld not have cut my hair at that shop shld have went twister to cut my hair!!

!@#$%^&%$\

MY HAIR SUCKS.

14.75

2010-02-02T21:24:00.006+08:00

hmm back to bloging...school offically start last thurs..and all i can say is orientaion is kinda boring in the first few days but well now orientation starts to get a little better(:

currently i am feelin kinda perplexed by the uniform..omg sucks man how come the uniform is either too big if not too small for me wth wth wth...

ytd i bought shirt size 15 and when i try it out it was damn big and loose..so today i went to exchange to a size 14.5 and when i try its like a little tight..

so what can i conclude from it?? fat.

seriously i dun even know if i can change the shirt size again..haix..
(cause i heard the aunttie like say only can change once.)

okay i think from now on i am goin to skip my lunch or breakfast already...or even going out for regular workouts.

tmr is the cca open house and i am so looking forward to it...

i guess there should be no more hesitation about joining which cca, because i have already made up my mind... (made a guess which cca would i join?)

2010-01-24T03:02:00.002+08:00

okay i am finally back!!!

hmm shitt man!!i forget to being my hp back...i left it inside my car...omg..i am really sorry to say that i literally can't survive w/o my hp esp for tmr cause i need it for my theory lesson...i need a alarm:/

furthermore its already 3am i seriously doubt that i can wake up at 9am omg...

left or right?continue or quit?

2009-09-08T00:40:00.003+08:00

FRANKLY SPEAKING this blog is rather dead isnt it?

seriously how i wished that i could reverse the time and go back to time when i was in primary school, where i was still learning all the past tense,present tense...i seriously regreted for not paying attention that time...

i still remember when i was at p6 , all my relatives were like asking me to study hard for PSLE and get into a good school...but well i didn't took their words seriously..

it was so naive of me to even think that i could get good grades without studying haha...

and when results came out i was toally shocked about my results...i didn't talk to anyone for like i think 2 or 3 day...i totally shut myself up in my room...didn't have the mood to do any single thing...

so...with that result i entered jvs..and just a blink of time i am in sec 4 now..and o lvl's is like coming in 40 plus days?its like wow its really fast isn't it???hmm seriously this time round i don't want any more regrets..i am just going to throw in whatever knowledge thats i know into the exam...

i don't care if i have to stay back evryday in school or what i will just do it(:

right now...i feel that i really have to brush up on my maths,physics and also english too...

okays why do i have a feeling of guilt these few days? i have been feeling very guilty abt sth which happen on sat and till now i still can't ease the guiltiness inside me..how?

its seriously nothing big..its just that i neglected my piano..

have not been practising my exam song...and i felt damn guilty during the piano lesson on sat cause its more of a practise session than compared to a lesson..

hmm...i have been contradicting with myself...one moment i decides to continued my piano lesson the other moment i decides to stop my piano lesson till after o'lvls..

i have been asking myself repeatedly if i really do want to continue piano till o'lvls or should i stop for a while till o'lvls but..i am really in a dilemma..

i wanted to continued learning but i do not think i could afford to take out any time to practise the pieces..so how?

40 more days...

2009-08-25T00:32:00.002+08:00

woah!its has been like ages since i last blog...this blog is like so dead le lor..

haha i guess everyone is busy studying now isn't it?
prelims is like approaching soon...i mean like 3 days time...

haix and the starter dish for prelims would be chinese...
and the best part is that till now i still do not have any idea on how to write my compo like i used to...

is like all those inspiration is like all deleted from my brain..well..still trying my best to 'retrive' back whatever i can...

3days...since i have choose to retake...i would have to put in effort right?
at least i will be telling myself at the end of the day that i have did my best..so, no regrets(:

okay currently its like 12.43pm and i am still wide awake..dont feel sleepy at all...okays nevermind its alright...tmr can sleep till 9am or 10am since i am on medical leave for tmr too(:

having a fever again:(okay seriously i dont mind having the fever but the thing i dont like is sore throat..well who to blame because i want to ate the tom-yum steamboat:(and after eating i ended up with a sore throat which leads me back to the fever again...

okays, i shall be off to sleep even though i am not tired because i don't want to end up being a panda(:

can promise be broken?

2009-07-17T20:39:00.003+08:00

I AM STARTING TO FEEL VERY STRESS UP AGAIN!!

i dunno why i just don't get the drive of doing add maths any more...

i prefer e-math which is like much more easier =)

add math seriously i think if i were to get a C5 or B4 i would be satisfied le la haha

hmm..there is a major change to my schedule i changed almost everything..lesser tuition too=)

i quit my tuition was because there is supplementary class and remedial class going on in the school.. which means i will be only at 5 or 6pm which means i will be freaking tired for any more tuition le...

anyway isnt that a good thing too?

hmm...now i truly realise that if a idol speaks one word or a sentence its a million more times powerful than what other random people have say!! i gurantee it works!

therefore derrick hoh's picture is also pasted on my table...'it' motivates me a lot:)

hmm today is like quite good lor...went home quite early...

had physics tuition at 4-5.30pm..

after the tuition went out to meet YB at JP:)

OH anyway the personality test is out..and what it says about is quite true at some parts...it is like totally describing me lor haha...

2009-07-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

okay i skipped my physics tuition again because i was freaking tired in the tuition la..

time seems to pass so slow during the tuition..it used to pass very fast but now..it seems like only after like 1 million years than the minute hand will move...

i realised one very shocking thing today..which is actually i already have 5 makeup lesson to go but I DON'T KNOW ABOUT IT AT ALL TILL TODAY..i always thought that i only have 2 make up lesson until today i asked the staff at the counter as i was unsure...

than the stuff count already and she say "5" i was like "huh?!so many ar?!" omg omg imagine that okay if i wanted to quit the tuition i must give a month notice which is 4 lessons...

than 4+5 =9!!!which means i have to attend 9 more lesson before i can quit =.='' lol thats alot leh!!nvm shall see how it goes as time goes by...

had physics spa in school today...hmm i think it was still quite okay la..should be able to pass??dunno la...but i think i miss out one thing which is the coil of the iron bar...

okay whateva it is..its OVER!!

than after that after school had english mock exam till 6.10pm...

for paper one i was so distracted by the people that are playing soccer on the field and because of it i nearly cant finish the paper on time...but well in the end i still manage to finish la haha

than paper 2...i finish the whole paper including summary 20 mins before the time so i decided to rest for like 5 mins than the rest is re-check the paper again to make a sure no error but...

well i fall asleep...its was like i think until mdm P say times up and i was like "huh,so fast ar?!" than plus my aunt call me la and i didn't feel anything vibration lor haha..until i see the missed call..

okay la...shall be off to study a bit more for tmr math mock exam tmr...

2009-07-13T22:56:00.002+08:00

derrick's so cute!!!!

okay today was like a real busy day for me!!!

math remedial started at 4pm till 5.30pm..

in between the time i was actually rushing all my homework stuff and the e-math serangoon paper 2...manage to finish on time:)

studied together with christine till 4pm for the remedial to start...

than at 4 pm math remedial start and yb waited for my e math remedial to end while she study outside for her geog with my MP3..

after the remedial ended when to the bubble tea stall opposite our school with yb and winanto..left shortly after buying their food...

than while walking to the bus-stop i was like should i go to JP cause i notice that Chocolate's wet food is running out...

than in the end decided to went to JP la even though i was freaking tired after the long day...

no choice..i can't bear to starve 'him' haha...

went to pets station and got 4 cans of wet food and also a peach strudel for myself and went home after that...

bath and ate..manage to practise piano for like 10 mins cause my math tutor came early...so started lesson early lor...

did a bit of e math and add-math during the tuition..

-.-'' i was so shocked la when he decided to do add math today..it was like so sudden! and i am so not prepared lor...

did trigo identities..was so damn supprised lor when i could do some of the question there without any hint or stuff lor...i was like "wow, today i am so lucky man haha!"

okay now i know at least for add math i still know how to do a little bit of trigo..and that is like very good le!!

as u guys know i don't expected a lot for my add-math anymore...

i don't want to expect a lot too..because to me its always the more hope i give myself the greater disappointment i would get in return for it..so might as well dont think of anything lor...

so for the next upcoming add math mock exam i swear that i would be freaking happy if i could even pass the paper even if its just a border line pass..

i will jump and scream for joy!!

oh and 1 more thing i just realised that in the past i had actually set a target of A2 for my add-math!!its so unbelievable...

i think if its now,B4 i would be satisfied:)

give up?

2009-07-11T17:08:00.003+08:00

Derrick once says " failure and stuff..its all bit and parcel of life"

okay just finished piano lesson...i really feel like givng up la...play until like shit like that...

is like i can see on my teacher's face he is running out of patient....because i still can't get it right after don't know how many times...

i felt so dissapointed la to see that look on his face...seriousl, i am starting to freak out for piano lesson le..

is like 1 hour before his lesson i am already like shievering le lor...than when i was playing out the song for him i could already feel the shivering of my hand le lor...

i am starting to feel very stress about it again...and after the lesson i cried..

i feel so dissapointed...throughout the whole lesson i swear that there are times that i really want to burst out crying but i just told myself be strong be strong 'its all bit and parcel life..'

seriously la i hate my choice A and C song la..even thought it is nice...

i just can't get it right...

but well at least today he say that choice B is not but..other piece..forget it la..don't want to mention it....

right now i only feel like doing my math now because it is the only one that i start to feel confident again...

my tutor say actually i had the math base there(: and actually my math is okay one but is only that no confidence...

hmm...is it?

right now...chilled is the only word....

practise makes perfect!
practise makes perfect!
practise makes perfect!

2009-07-10T23:27:00.004+08:00

OMG OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE IT...

MY FIRST AUTOGRAPH SEESION WAS NICHOLAS,ZHANG DONGLIANG!!

wow really cant believe it man till now it seems like a dream to me lor..haha

cause today school's dissmisal time was like i think 12.15pm and got to stay back for chem supplementary class...

chem supplementary class starts at 2.45pm today so after school went to JP with yb...

came back to school at around 2.20pm...haix was so tired lor...nearly fell asleep during mdm T lesson...

aiya..don't blame me for falling asleep la cause imagine u everyday sleep at 11 wake up at 4 plus instead of 6 how u feel? tired right?

plus nightmare almost everyday lor...scary...and this means that my body is not taking a complete rest lor...

okay than is like after school i was like hey today is nicholas's autograph session so should i go?

than i was like "eh, happen that today no piano lesson change to tmr lor..." so means its fated lor...and i went lor haha

reach home at around 4pm, bathed and went out to JP to purchase the cd cause i scare that at IMM there wounldn't be any more of the cd...

but is the other way round lor when i reach IMM garden plaza it was like around 5.20 pm(: i saw there is a stall that is specially set up selling his cd la...some more is the second version de lor plus there's a poster too...

haix but well nvm i have already bought mine already haha...

so waited around till 7.10 pm..Nicholas came but he went for interview and came to stage at around 7.30pm(:

he sang a total of 3 songs and the autograph session starts..

got my cd signed and i left...went in to IMM to shop around while waiting for my dad to fetch me home...

bought this little keychain..was reaking happy cause have been looking for it for quite some time le...

at last i found it!

quite nice la..but well the one i wanted is actually mickey or minnie..but its from that kind of 'toy machine' so too bad cant choose...but well i am still very pleased because i spent my $2 on this keychain instead of the 'toy-grabbing machine' on the second level which was so tempting me to spend money on it...
because i saw there is MICKEY MOUSE inside it and the mickey mouse can even like walk la so cute!!!

but it cost $2 per game which equals to one single grab...isnt it kinda waste money $2 for a grab which is like u 99% sure wont get anything one lor..haha

so thats why choose to get the keychain instead haha(:

mixed feeling

2009-07-07T21:48:00.002+08:00

okay today is a real busy and tired day for me man!!

i am so tired until i think i could just doze off during my tuition class haha...

therefore i decided to left early for tuition and not attend physics class because there is no point in going for tuition when u are tired right?

did social studies paper and also e math paper 2 today which means school ends at 6pm fot today and me and mandy have to fly all the way to JP before 7...and have our dinner omg..so rush lor...

plus this kind of situation is going to last for like few more weeks??omg WTH!!!its very tiring de lor...plus i dont want to go make up class...okay i have already 2 makeup class le lor...if i keep adding on thats it man more and more makeup class...

saw my primary school friend at the tuition and sometimes actually i realise that actually when u meet up with some friends that you have not seen them for like ages actually the feeling is kinda good...

chatted for a while and i went popular to get some stuff and went back home....

freak man...the first thing that i do when i reach home is actually to practise piano...haix..okay i shall make a deal with myself man i want to practise piano at least 10 mins EVERYDAY!!

i dont care...i shall make all the time out for it...die die also must...

because i dont want to be scolded again lor...so practise i believe that it works!!

okay this shall be a short post because i am freaking tired and i want to go sleep so...sweet dreams ppl(:

dreams....

2009-07-06T16:29:00.004+08:00

had a weird dream yesterday real bad one i mean actually is 3 not one...

and one of the dream that i remember clearly is that i actually dream of derrick...

i dream that he was right infront of me...and very supprised la...

i went up to him to ask if i could take a picture with him and he was like 'NO!GO AWAY!'"I AM BUSY NOW CAN'T U SEE?"and i woke up...omg omg thank godness its just a dream...can't imagine it if it was to be a real case...

hmm currently rotting at home...don't feel like going out...except to JP cause i want to but the 郭采潔's album because for one of the song's mv, derrick is inside...
but well...i am broke le la..:(

perhaps just wait for while wait till i have enough money than go buy lor...

yesterday..went out to do hw at mac and library...than at around 6 plus i think..my parents came to fetch me and we went imm for dinner...

they told me that they had bought chocolate a new bed and i was like "REALLY?!!" because in the past my parents die die also refuse and yesterday they told me that they had bought one i was like WOW!!

his new bed...hmm..i still think that it looks more like a bed for the cats than for the dogs..don't u think so?my maid keep saying that this shall be the condo for chocolate..Haha LOL.

but..well me and my maid both agree that the small little dog house that i saw at pets station was much nicer than this...hmm but the price of both differ by a lot...and i am still saving up for it...its much more exp than the bed...haix...

2009-07-04T17:53:00.003+08:00

watch this video ppl..derrick is inside..hmm i guess i have mention that before right?

okay i finally have the time to sit down for a rest le all the from morning i was all packed with stuff...

hmm..morning woke at 9 and slowly go bath and wash up all the stuff than around 950am go check my tuition homework and i was like OMG I MISSED OUT SOME QUESTION....

too late le la...on 10 am sharp my tutor came.

my mum was like eh next time have ur math tuition on saturday morning okay?my answer is NO!!!felt so rush today..cause i didnt manage to even eat breakfast today..and i swear that my stomach is growling until so loudly la!!*embarrassed*

tha tuition dragged a bit until 1230pm and i was like omg omg late for tuition le...so skip lunch again

thank goodness man my mum bought a cup of bubble tea before that and she place inside the fridge..so i just grab the bubble tea and drank it on my way to tuition lor...at least it kept me going until 2pm=)

during another tuition right i was damn pissed la!!i ask for a e-math paper 2 than he say will print for me later but in the end say he was busy and he cant print for me..okay.WHATEVA!

rushed home after tuition for piano lesson and food..

didnt practise a lot today and omg today is the worst day lor!!its so badly played...

got scolded by teacher lor!!haix first time la..he's so fierce lor!!nearly cried la...aiya but well i kind of deserve it..who ask me don't want practise hard right?!!

nvm nvm next lesson will be better...

tmr will be a better day too(:

2009-07-02T17:45:00.002+08:00

goodbye distinction...i am so not fit for that grade...just had oral just now can i can tell u that at the rate of how i am saying it sucks!!

with this kind of thing it wont get me anywhere..perhaps ppl will think that hey its just oral why am i like that...

but well people who knows what i want to when i grow up would understand why i care so much about oral...

this year the oral topic compare to last year was way too different..and its also freaking hard too..

i wish i wish i could have a distinction but well...i think that time i have gotten it was just based on sheer luck...

its over now anyway where finally i do not have to think about it anymore...its so stress..do u know that espically when seeing people studying for the oral too??

ppl kept saying that i would be able to make it since i have gotten a distinction last year but so it simply doesnt means that it would happen this year too...

if its the first time that i am taking the oral i bet most probably the stress impact wouldn't be that big as this time...okay wateva it is, its OVER!!

after the oral we (those taking oral on today) kinda meet in the canteen and we chatted for a while in the canteen and everyone was like aiya shit ar i miss this thing and that...haix...

walked off to the bus shortly after that together with est,gwt,joel and jasmine...and we waited for bus 185 to come...and at the 500+ the market that stop joel and gwt alighted which left jas and i on the bus...

and the most impt thing is at that stop i think a lady she bought DURIANS up onto the bus!!

OMG...I HATE THE SMELL OF DURIANS NOW OKAY!!!

because it makes me headache and wanna to puke...to me now the smell of the durian simply smells like 1 thing which is GAS LEAKAGE!!! *stinks*

thanks goodness cause i alight from the bus soon if not i think i will faint le haha...

hmm..than walk back home alone and bought a cup of bubble tea on my way home just to get rid of all the durian smell...

than just now when i was using the com mrs N call me via my hp...

its so random lor she ask if i have finished my math hw and i was like "er...nope not add math haha" and its like thats all...

okay i shall be off to bath now and get ready for tuition which i dont think i will be in the mood today....

2009-07-01T23:33:00.001+08:00

aiya ok la what ever ok i cant upload derrick's picture which is i dont know why whateva la...hmmm i dont know why but right now this moment i felt so lost...and a lack of confident..i kept thinking about the oral exam tmr...

i have no confident of scoring at all...

i am lacking of all the knowledge that i am supposed to know...

my brain is in a state of blank total blank....

i wish that tmr i could be the first one to take the test at least u take first and also end faster isn't it?

2009-06-30T15:47:00.002+08:00

okays i am such a idiot man i can even do the math question in 10 yr series..wth...got so many question don't know how to do..tsk..irritating

hmm..tonight not going for tuition because i dont really feel well so...not going lor...haix wat a boring day...woke up already started to the math than geog....i feel like going to jp today to get some thing..but forget it tmr than go since tmr is more impt....

okay just a few more homework and i am finished with it!!
->geog (half way)
->compo
->physics

2009-06-29T22:19:00.002+08:00

okay this is just a add on...omg omg maths angle properties in a circle...finally understood le haha...i think if after the 2 hours still dont understand i think really gone case le la haha....

hmmm...i think i am like half dead le la...got a headache shit man!and plus homework i am so so so not done with them and i think tonight dont need to sleep le la...homework...

oh did i mention that today's the start of my new math tuition?well okay cause my math is like going on a roller coaster which for my case is only going down and never up again...so i feel that i need more attention for math...

all i can say is the tutor is very patient lor..cause i think i nearlly drove him mad lor :X haix paiseh la cause i am super duper tired so i was like saying "anything,hmm ,ar,orh"and nothing else but aiya other than that what else to say? plus when i am tired i wont obviously think very hard lor..-.-''

ooo and one super most impt thing is at least he's punctual haha...

okay shall stop here and continue to do my hw and off to sleep...wish me luck man because i want to sleep before 11.30 but i am still left with tons of hw undone:(

2009-06-29T18:33:00.003+08:00

Today was the first day of the school and i can swear that it was a bad start for me definetly!!
1st was because i forget to bring my declaration form!OMG...thats how stupid i could be at times...and the best part was i only realised it when i reached the school..and how 'cool' it is lor..so without the form i was being sent up to the hall la...i was the only one from my class lor...and is like so stupid man we have to wait in the hall just because we never being the form...so i have to take temp in the hall too la and than go tell the teacher whats my temperature...

the most irritating part is the teacher who is consider just attached to our school doesn't know how to pronounce my name and he read wrong la!!
ok i am sorry about it but i am just very piss off by people who reads my name wrongly...

"HELLO..OPEN UR EYES BIG AND READ THE WORDS!WHICH PART OF MY NAME DO U NOT KNOW?!"
and plus i already say out my register no le and before u read out the name i already point to u my name so is there a point to read my name out loud?!

i'm so piss by it la!!

2nd---omg can u believe that today i had seen MR L for like 4 hours? physics and admin stuff takes up four hours

*faints*

it was so so BORING..and i nearly fell asleep la...

oh and math lesson oh shit i totally need help on that cordinate geometry..i dont understand what the teacher is talking about...plus homework is given...

anyway thanks Est for asking me to read ur blog okay because....

today during math lesson i heard someone singing and felyna was like TSK who singing like that la at first i was like "aiya confirm est de la" den after that right mrs N ask and she 'claims' that its not her...so everyone was like so puzzled who was it...

best part we was like thinking hey now is not yet the seventh month...so creepy and all these kind of stuff la...

hey but Est thanks ar...u gave urself out in ur own blog haha

but well one happy thing this week all the sec four don't have any supp class till next week(:

2009-06-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

okay school is opening soon and haix..no more waking up late...
hmm didnt manage to post yesterday because i was very very tired after the wedding dinner..meet up with some of the cousins wow its really like long time no see each other le how i miss them...hmmm but well i think the next time we meet should be till new year again le haix...
oh and speaking of the food serve by that hotel erm...well i can only say i didn't ate much last night :X

its not because the food taste awful its because of the lighting system in that hotel...when we first enter the ballroom was still brightly lit but when food was serve guess what?

it was like almost pitch dark...the light was like so dim la...and we cant even see what food is that lor...therefore didnt really eat haha...
and you know that is like only AFTER dessert than they switch on the light to a brighter mode la...than one of cousin sitting next to me like "hey its like cinema like that lor...when everything end already than lit on the light!!" and i was like -.-'' but anyway its quite true la haha...

oh and i have got myself a new haircut yesterday at twister...hey this time round there is really a difference in my hair le so dont say i never cut my hair again ok...cause this hairstyle was not i choose neither was choosen by yunbei cause she went with me to cut her hair too...this hairstyle is the stylist cut want(:because i was like anything lor u want cut what than cut just dont make it to difficult to tie can le...
so there goes my new hairstyle(:

sian lor sch starting which means have to sign my report book frankly speaking i hate to sign my report book ever since i was small no matter the results i have got are good or bad i just dont like to have them sign is like so irritating la...signing the report book kind of makes me guilty in a way...

plus i am so dead because i still have not finished my homework...

bad day

2009-06-26T00:09:00.002+08:00

omg wat a bad day....roar... is like all those recent events that happen...omg omg nail crack , eye swollen, late for school and still got what is coming next lor??
-.-'''dang now headache...omg omg what the heck is wrong?

okay shall make this a real short post..gotcha to go catch some sleep if not i think i would be a panda again...would be going to wedding dinner tmr so all the more need a good sleep haha(okay i know thats just a stupid excuse lor)...hmm wedding dinner...okay one of the events that i dont like to attend...but well its my cousin getting married so i dont really mind going for the dinner(:plus that time i miss out her engagement date also because parents in malaysia so...didnt manage to attend her engagement party...now that she is getting married of course i must go haha...

okay i think i should end my post here because i am super tired after running around places today.Night, perhaps would update after the wedding dinner(:

2009-06-22T21:52:00.008+08:00

okay new blogskin because the previous one got error:(:(
but well this blogskin is nice right?!!haha

okay today went to school for some waste time programe...okays perhaps i should be nice and dont until that mean but well its true la...hmm its not boring but well i feel that we as students didnt learn anything from it except some cold jokes lor...but well still okay la time still pass quite fast today...

anyway haha i discover sth today!!! shall post some nice nice picture of ....

yenshan at my house...i found out sth she is scared of chocolate haha!!

but well she still manage to hold chocolate properly(:

stupid face:P
o freak freak!!!i am so so so dead le la homework!!
i am still with like i think a ton of homework la!!dont think will be able to finish on time lor...:(
haix forget it la!!whats fated is fated...okay thats all for today...
right now i am so pissed off by something....

holidays sucks!

2009-06-18T23:03:00.003+08:00

I hate holidays sucks man holidays are nothing but just homework and stuff...

from now ...no starting when school reopens i am so not going to eat anything for recess le!!money and money its all about money!!okay i had enough le from now i shall cancel one of math tuition okay...let it be!!

i shall really plan out a timetable and stick closely to it from now on!...
plus to some ppl out there: SHUT UP okay!!stop saying that i am dependent on others okay... yaya if u think i am dependent on others thats ur business okay!!

2009-06-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

oh...derrick has the habbit of bitting straw too haha!!!

okays i have not blog for like 14 days? opps because i am too lazy to blog le...

currently holidays and stuff..just attended the project super achievers in school...hmmm actually i hated to go for the course in the first day i was like aiya waste time la...hey but actually it turns out to be very very very fun man...i swear that via the course i have learn a lot things from coach sabrina and coach issac..they are really super funny and nice:)and i wish there would be such a course again....

during the weekend which is yesterday went out to orchard heeren alone to see derrick!!!OMG first time seeing him in real person...he and joycie went there for the coca cola event...they sang the song call open up some happiness on live too:)
manage to took some photos of him...but well still lacking of the chance to take a photo with him :( nvm....the day will come i believe haha....

next after that went to cineleisure for some gathering event...woots it was really fun!! pictures i shall post another time:)

and after that went home for dinner...n thats all for my saturday...

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sunday

omg omg what a bad day I have had today because firstly I woke up and I wanted to get out of my room to brush up but haix i am so stupid that i was closing the door i actually forget that my hand is on the door there and i just closed the door and there goes my finger!!>.<

next went to use the com and guess what i got scratch by the edge of the computer table...leaving a nice and pretty scar on my leg.WHAT THE HECK.
i am just so 'lucky' for today....

tmr is study group must really go study le remember that the previous study group i didnt go because had something on this time round i die die must go study le no more slacking form now on:)

shall end of this post with one more pic

2009-06-01T19:49:00.002+08:00

woots i am back as normal self finally!!

no more emo from now on!!!

hmmm a bit tired woke up at 6.30am for o lvl mt was so afraid that i would be late lor even though left house at 7.00am haha...but well I REACH SCHOOL ON TIME!!!(:

haix the paper erm what should i say...its still average a bit tough but well ok la:)...i love the paper 2 man i mean the compre its so motivating serious...but i didnt manage to finish the paper on time haix 5 marks gone... but well its over!!

just like what the compre says human must always be optimistic no matter how sad we are....because if u keep being pessimistic its not going to help reverse the situation in anyway right? so from now on shall stay happy and optimistic(:(:

2009-05-28T18:10:00.002+08:00

haha one more day before death cames....so enjoy first before my mood is spoil(:

hoho today almost turn into a roasted chicken all thanks to fire alarm exercise well its pretty erm...funny?

is like when the alarm rang i happen to be in mdm lin chinese class and is like when the alarm rang there goes the announcement telling us not to do anything yet and mdm lin class was like ok carry on with compo until the announcement finished right mdm lim thought that its nothing want dont need to go down to e carpark to gather..

so in conclusion she made us stay in class and in the end other teachers have to come down to ask us to go down....haix and because of it the timing of the fire drill exercise took a total of 9 mins instead of 3 mins...:X

after school went to jp with est and anginn to shop for mr chan's present...and est is doing the card omg...mr chan is leaving..hmmmm one lesser physics teacher *sigh*...began to shop around in jp alone for the boys before flowers soundtrack omg is like the price is a big big wow to me so expensive lor....

i was so so so tempted to buy the saoundtrack despite the price...but thank goddness i didn bought it because i did not have anymore cash already:D *phew* if not another $20 plus gone...

reached home at around 4 plus plus went online to check about a DJ course omg omg i wanted badly to go for the course so so so much but the price...haix its too exp le la i mean for me as a student....is like $500 plus...i feel like going leh...plus the date of the course clash with my schedule because on the 26 june i have to attend my cousin wedding....haix...so means i cant go for the course le lor:(

if i have a choice...

2009-05-27T20:05:00.003+08:00

call me a pessimistic girl if u want to.
call me a sensitive person if u want.

parents meeting...its a direct commit suicide for me....
give me a break!!!friends say that i changed a lot i become more hot temper and stuff..ok i agree its true...

i am getting more and more tired of faking myself infront of schools,teachers and friends trying to act as if nothing happen and i am alright with everything...as there is always a saying forgive and forget....and even thought i always say that but this time round i find it very very difficult to accept it...
perhaps i am too petty...people keep telling me to forget about what that person say but i just cant...i tried my best,but these words just kept ringing inside my mind....

today est mention something about if i have a choice...ya how good it would be if i have a choice....

u can really say that i am too sensitive but today i was really fed up and pissed off with somebody....perhaps these words wasnt aim at me...well i dont know...imagine u ask a person a question properly and nicely but the reply the person gave back was like that kind of attitude reply what would u do?piss right?!

pardon me for saying that....did i do something wrong today that i deserve this kind of attitude...or in your eyes i am already a rotten apple and that u have nothing to say about it??

ya i know myself well enough i know that i am already a failure in many people's eyes...i know that my results sucks...i know that i am spoiling the class msg...i know that i wasnt supposed to go 3A right from the start...

i just cant do anything well...leave me alone...

2009-05-25T19:53:00.002+08:00

omg omg i think i am sick again flu plus headache....all thx to that YH la!!zzz...i think my whole head is like spinning now...and my mum keeps asking me to go eat dinner...haix is like eat already also no use...i cant taste anything so its no use even if u place a durian infront of me because i dont smell anything:(

if the flu continues tmr i am so not going to sch is like what the point cause i will be very tired like today and is like ppl are going to ask if i am alright cause i look like i am crying whenever i have flu....=.=''

haix...out of sudden i feel like eating fish porridge but...dinner has already been cooked so no choice....tsk dont understand why on the earth do i keep getting flu irritating leh!!

oh ya plus one more thing i dont even know what lesson are we having tmr is like all the other classs have got their timetable except our class and i dont even know what to pack for my bag without the timetable...heard that there is no chinese tmr except after school la but...what else what lessons are we having?geog?physics?chem?or math?

spaeking of math...omg omg what happen to me my grades are falling i really need to do sth or else i would be dead man...

i feel that i am such a failure i fail so many subject or rather i think almost all f my subjects fail....okays mw buck up!!!

i am dead for parents meeting....

2009-05-22T17:03:00.004+08:00

this was also taken from the mv....

current mood : bad mood...

today was like a shit day for me...all because of a 'comment' that somebody has say...

i know i should not bother with all this but well its easier say than done imagine someone did that to u...i dont think anyone could have take it unless u pro la haha...

as usual out of the four hours we have got three hours of chinese lesson...well frankly speaking i would rather that i go for chinese lesson than any other lesson...its the most fun and enjoying lesson that i have ever had(:

than after mt had a lesson of geog it was so omg ....

kk ppl who knows about the incident during geog will know what the heck i am talking about...

i was freaking sad about it wait not because of results it because of another thing...

than after geog lesson went recess and chinese again...manage to force out a laugh during chinese lesson...

i try hard to control myself,telling myself its alright but it didnt really work very well...

until just now piano lesson...omg omg i almost cry its so freaking awkward and he notice it:x...and is like the rest of lesson i am like playing rubbish i wasn't focus on the music my mind just went blank....keep playing the music over and over again but i just cant grasp it right...haix

anyway thanks ppl for cheering up me today..i feel much more better...

2009-05-21T22:08:00.002+08:00

I am starting not to know my ownself any any more...i dont even understand my own emotions...i really don know how to react any any more i hate it sucks man is like today when we get back add maths paper omg omg ...

my first expression is shocked and the second is sad because is like what so low i expect myself to get higher for my paper 2 my well i didnt...

i am really stun by the mark i get i am serious is like looking around all those around me get higher and much more better than me lor...what to do?!!

kk i admit that i know that my paper 1 will be badly done but not paper 2 even fail i also don mind but please at least a nicer pass can is like this time i really fail badly...

during the 2 hours of math lesson i assure that it is the hell period for me ok i assure!!do u know how hard it is to control ur emotion trying hard not to cry....at least chinese lesson it brought me some laughter (:
and is like after that when i went home i burst out...

tmr its the last day endure endure...i am so unwilling to go for tuition now i mean math i dont want to go!!!ARGH!!! because i know that for sure i will be scolded and comparing of results is bound to happen thats why....

the only way out for me now is to keep telling myself that it is only mid year but it doesnt really works because i am only deceiving my ownself my grades has not been good ever since beginning of sec 3 and now its already sec 4 ppl around me tell me its alright never mind still got next test but look so many exams have passed and yet i didnt do well for any of the exams....

ps: i am sorry that this is really negative but i just need to get this out of my chest...

2009-05-20T19:25:00.003+08:00

omg mianwoon!! i am such a failure i fail so many subjects...i think i will be dead for the meet the parents session...but my parents doesnt feel like going so...i am wondering if my parents can skip but i think most probably not because mrs neo say that those L1R5 above 25 will be invited so...i guess i am in:(

kk i think i should reall ystart to speak in proper english since o levels oral is coming very soon...these few days i have been feeling super duper tired is like every day sleep at 12 am and wake up at 5 am ...is like its only 5 hours of sleep...there is so many stuff to do during lesson time is like now i look back how i wish i could be in the sec 3 or sec 2 life where life is so carefree and not that stress as compared to sec 4 is like you know that everyday the sec 4 are having a lessons and going through papers whereas the sec 2 and sec 3 they are having camps and enrichment courses!!

went for tuition at JP yesterday...er...i think i enjoy yesterday lesson very very much even though my tutor was in a bad mood i swear that its my first time seeing him in such a bad mood...but well manage to survive(: is like he teach alkanes and alkenes yesterday and also isomers.For physics he teach pratical electricity...and as usual he say those who cant do shall not go home...and usually i would have to ask my tution friends for help because i dont know how to do but well yesterday i manage to complete it by myself(:(:(:

but....i think i am going to disappoint him le my physics and my chem results...haix its really like what he say 'pass with flying colours'...

2009-05-18T16:43:00.002+08:00

ok i like this pic its really nice...derrick help out in a mv(:

results are out and i am dead omg omg omg i have to say a freaking hundred omg results are out!!

well i really dont know what to say le my maths is sucks one can is horrible and incredible i cant believe that i got such a low marks ok .whateva la....

manage to pass mt paper if not i would be dead ain i?my compo i write out of point omg sucks la i flunk my paper first time i fail my paper leh...haix well i should be glad not during o lvl can...

chem...okok i flunk my paper one and i am so freaking dead...i dont know how to tell my tutor its kinda disappointing isnt it??haix why like that all the disappointing stuff all came....

add maths i will be dead man seriously by tmr i will be dead...sure fail de...and chem just ask the teacher and she say only 50 percent pass nia...

currently we (i mean all the sec 4 & 5) are all having 3 hours of mt lesson a day omg its 3 hours leh...a bit too long but well chinese o lvl coming so...no choice...

piano lesson....ok i give u a knife u kill me k i am really dead i till now still cant get my Alberti base correct shit la i die le la...hmmmm and i should change away my bad habbit of saying whateva..its erm...haix the story goes like this....that day piano lesson when i was playing and my teacher corrected me say that this part is wrong and i just say 'whateva' and to me hey actually its kinda rude lor....haha kill me my playing seriously sucks and the fingerings...is not i dont want but i dunno how...

gone case...physics and el and add maths i think in conclusion i will be failing all my mye paper kk say good luck to me cause i heard that another parent meeting is coming up OH NO!!!!

2009-05-11T15:23:00.002+08:00

woots exams is goin t be over soon...endure endure ....i am dead seriously i mean my add maths paper there is really no way i can pass i know for sure because of my paper one omg is like i stare at the paper for like 20 mins man i was huh how to do haix forget it...its a fail...this time round i dun think i will do well is lke its pretty obvious la...wateva its just a short update goin for tuition soon at 4 perhaps since my tutor told me to come at any time after 3.30 haha...

this week after thurs and everything will be over right??its pretty cool actually because i only attend school for like 2 days which is tmr and thurs since its like marking day and stuff....haix...

zzz...i am actually quite looking forward to tmr paper i dunno why even though i know that i am failing for sure...hmm...i still have a make up session at stalford haix...what course should i go i just went for the add maths want hmm quite fun i would say but is like the timing like so weird lo...than actually wanted to go another maths tuition but is like on sunday and its freaking early can.... 9.00am omg lor i cant wake up so....haix i didnt go lor:)kk la should update more perhaps on thurs kk packing up for tuition now:)

2009-04-29T16:10:00.004+08:00

2009-04-17T22:17:00.002+08:00

kk i had enough le ok!!!

today i am going to post everything out...

anyway also no one cares...since its like so dead~~

today someone literally spoil my mood....

to that person- "eh thanks ar...thanks for creating such a 'perfect' mood for me ok"

i totally hate it ok never study ya la ya la i never study ok that why i get 2/25 satisfied.....and i flunk my ss happy??i think its the lowest in the class lor wth...

i really had enough le ok really enough le la....results sucks and everything sucks

can u imagine...i really hate it the most when ppl was like saying "wa so good never take bio le...." yaya never take it doesnt means anything my grades are just as lousy as be4

ya i am just a bio dropout student....is like at times even me myself ask if i did regret droppin bio and my ans is yes i do regret. But what done cant be undone isnt it?? and its really true that u like the subject simply does not prove anything....

learn to face the reality was what i know....ppl was like telling me results is not my everything.... wrong now i tell u YES ITS MY EVERYTHING!!!....its quite true what without good grades who would want to hire u??i dont believe lor one day u go for a interview and there is like one who score 9 A1 and another all C5 lets see who will the boss hire ok!!!

my grades is like all at border line or better still some fail and is like o'lvls is just like months away...i am afraid that what the teachers say to me will come true....

i am so tired these few weeks or days at times i really wish that i will just fall asleep and never ever wake up again and this spells a FULLSTOP to my troubles....

sometimes what u see may not be what i think...if u really think i am like that than let me tell u...u dont understand me at all so don't ever judge me with what u FEEL instead of what i FEEL.

test....saddness or joy?

2009-04-13T22:57:00.003+08:00

sian...i really dunno why but all i would say is shit man!!!exams are approaching is like wth!!!we just received the schedule today and yet e school is telling us 2 weeks later exams start?!!wow. how cool it is man haha. and well this year the arrangement of the examinations day is like kinda weird man i mean is like we take add math paper 2 first instead of 1 first how weird it is lor....

well but the only thing i am fretting over is results.....i bet i am e last again i am always one isnt it??*sigh*
hey i really find it no point and no purpose to go sch is like its so so so SIAN la....plus today what on the earth is that c.teacher teaching about i seriously have no idea man i was 'huh' and she didn't really bother so i guess it isnt important i know la....watever

physics....another headache for me the left hand rule is almost drivng me mad heard that there is more rule tmr haha die le lor wish me luck lor wish my hand wont be twisted k haha=)

zzz lessons are simply boring i dun understand why must we have periods like live its kinda boring and waste time (opps ) but its a truth=)

so many test are coming out at a same time oh man!!!especially upcoming thurs chem test on electrolysis plus chinese mock exam paper 2....but well still looking forward to fri and tmr because fri = piano lesson woots:):)
tmr=pizza hut treat:):) yummy !!!

more updates should come perhaps on e weekends.....night ppl:)

2009-03-26T21:41:00.004+08:00

ok finally blog haha i think it has been ages since i last blogged=)

hmm think i now should have a bit more of time le cause i am no longer taking bio well sad to say that i dropped but its reality(did i spell it right?) that tells me that maybe i am really unsuitable for bio....well...all i could say if i have choice i also dun want who want am i right??

oh no man i think the up coming meet the parents session i am goin to be so DEAD because my results simply sucks sorry because sucks is the word that can think of to describe my results ok la perhaps horrible is the another word that can be used....

i am only praying hard that on that day i can really control my emotions k!!i mean i dun want to see myself crying again...haix i already know what teachers are goin to say when they see my results i know it just sucks the first response their first response when they see the results should be shake head ba....lol....

i really dont know what will happen on that day and i can tell u that even though i think on wed or tue Mr Lam flash the results to us in the class even though every thing sucks but well that day i really felt nothing but when the date to meet the parents is coming i start to think through a lot of things and frankly speaking i am starting to worry about it....okok whatever k....control control....

zzz....parents meeting that day i am sure i will be bombarded with a lot of qns....but well mentally prepared...wa lao now i only hope one thing whoever the teacher is goin to talk to my parents i really beg u pls do not say "that" sentence kk if not i think i really will cry on spot....hey is like do u know got once that sentence was say to me and do anyone even know how much it hurts?? even though its the truth la but do u have to say until like that??hey hey i am just a normal student k please spare a thought for my feeling lor...i think i till now i still can remember very clearly that sentence u say to me.....

nvm nvm nvm its the last year le endure:)

2009-03-04T23:07:00.003+08:00

hmmm just went came back for tuition 30 mins ago...

sian lor i am freaking tired during the lesson la.....today is a busy day for me la...

had piano lesson again...omg omg i seriously dont know what to do....i am sorry if i make my teacher irritated ok whatever ok i cant play well and seriously everything is not prepared!!!i am sorry i am supposed to practise more yesterday but i never....sorry sorry....

anyway i really wondered...he say that i dont have confidence in myself but well that is quite true....for me myself i dont even know since when on the earth i have become so negative...i know its my attitude la....but he's right i must change my attitude i must be confident....haix.....

but...now i wish that the exam just quickly pass and i hope that my standard is 'good' enough to get a pass please!!i just want a pass and nth else=)

2009-03-03T20:37:00.002+08:00

kk if i could i find a million picture of derrick i swear i would flood it all over my handbook with his pics....

i really dont know what to say le i have gave up i really have gave up....i dropped bio...hey i seriously i looks happy on the surface but deep down within me i am not very sure...am i really happy that i drop bio?a lot of ppl wanted me to continue but i am not so sure if i could do it...so therefore i dropped...did i make the right choice??well i dont know actually perhaps i should continue but is like can i take it whatif o lvl come out is flunk how?i cant take that big risk....if only....

i assure u that it wasnt easy for me to come to that decision i swear!!!i dont really want to drop it either but he's right reality comes first...my results sucks and this is a truth a fact which no one could change it....that it game over for me.....

perhaps after this i would feel much better after dropping bio but not currently i cant really feel the so called 'happiness ' that everyone thought i would be feeling after having a lesser subject.....i really dont feel that way....and sorry if i these few days very emotional....

ok i just now have 2 hours of piano lesson ok its not that the teacher who is giving me stress but is myself because i know where i stand....i know that with this kind of standard i wont even stand a chance to pass!!what more getting merit.....so now i am focusing more on piano now because the exam is only 6 more day!!and everything is not done yet......

i really dont known if make the choice i am really tired.....i have already went to the extreme which is dropping bio....and thats it furthest i can go.....i cant take it any more...

i regret i truly regret.....why why on the earth did i make my practical exam start at march and why why did i go to 4a in the very first place? i dont belong to there....everyone is like so smart and clever except for me....

2009-02-26T14:13:00.002+08:00

hey hey do u see the rainbow??its first time i see such a nice rainbow perhaps this is really sunshine after rain (yu guo tian qing) haha its nice...i saw it with ys on the way to dinner and funny thing is we were crossing the road and suddenly i was like eh rainbow eh...so this was taken in the middle of the road haha....

hmm yesterday just started out piano lesson with a new teacher haix i can assure its scary ok i mean its like its my fault i will be very very nervous perhaps is because of new teacher ba well i dont know....

is like the days i spent practising i can assure u its useless because once i am nervous thats it....

sian diao he say that i was very nervous when playin but its normal what...he say that even if i am nervous i just have pretend that i am not....but sometimes i just cant do it....my friends read my face as if they were readin a book that easy....no matter if am sad, happy,angry or what they would know is like even when i try to hide these emotions they will still know....well perhaps its because i dont hide my emotions....=)

haix these few days i really have been thinking if i should drop bio but hey i am still unsure a lot of ppl tell me continue while some think that i should drop but well i really dont know.....

ppl tell me i should be more confident in myself but but but do u know that lossing confidence is easier than gainning confidence??

i am no longer that sure of my decision le...everythin just does not match....for example i thought that i could manage time well and be able to make it for the practical exam on 9 marth instead of july but hey i was really wrong i cant make it at this rate....my playing just sucks!!!i still have a lot of things unprepared and yet the exam date is approaching....i wondered if i could even get a pass with this kind of standard lor:(

irritated and nervous

2009-02-17T15:53:00.004+08:00

:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

i think i screwed up today isnt it??well nervous nervous nervous is the only thing i can say....wth why am i so nerrvous??not nervous bu shi hao lor.....

well its already over le stop thinking about it mianwoon!!got in den in dont have den forget it la!!!x)

hmmm sian today got assembly!!! okok i can seriously tell u assembly is boring!!i dun care k cause for its a fact and a truth!!!haix get scolded for not paying attention and kept talking...well okok if u felt that i keep talking during assembly than i am so so so so sorry can le ba?!!hey i didnt talk alot k dun anyhow point fingers!! opps did i say too much :Xfine the next assembly i am gonna be shut my mouth up can?!!

i really think i screw up during the audition but well it was a experience la....

kk i think i better go bath and study cause tmr tmr tmr tmr GOT test!!!cause later got tuition....

hohoho i think as i say i only look forward to every tue in my life haha sian diao my now ar perhaps not cause y got assembly!!!sian diao!!! actually lesson is very very fun one but not that one....

and ya i just realise that i am starting to love geog and ss its fun espically being taught by ms wong....everytime got her lesson i would laugh like mad cause y one word to say = fun!!!plus i passed my ss and geog test is like wow!!!

i mean this only applies to ss and geog only la other subjects perhaps i would expect more....

btw i was dissapointed by the add math and e math results i think for the e math i sort of expect myself to fail but well....and add math i thought i might get better haix i just passed the test!!!

i really wish that i could have a second chance pls!!!

2009-02-15T21:55:00.005+08:00

omg omg !!! today went orchard and saw there was a jap fair and i saw all sorts of ice cream and there was this pearl milk tea ice cream omg omg i can tell u its damn freaking nice....

it just taste good real good....like u are drinking milk tea and the ice cream melt once u put it into ur mouth omg omg its delicious X)

than after that went shop shop saw a pretty nice shirt but didn't bought it cause no time....( erm how do i say...long story) well what a pity....haix...

than after that i went to bugis went to buy some stuff and than next went to suntec for the tour exhibition haha....one day= 3 shopping place

hmm but this time round the tour exhibition was not very well organised because all the tour agencies are like in different place so have to search for the agencies one by one...sian diao....

next went eat dinner at suntec and home sweet home:)

2009-02-13T22:49:00.002+08:00

first i have to say i have to blog for like erm dunno how many days...

realise that every time i say that i wanna to blog i always never:(

well today spent nearly the whole schooling hours helping to make the chocolate fondue...hmm its tired but fun(:

sian we got back add maths test and i can tell u that my results sucks like shit ok!!!but well i can only say at least i manage to pass the test like that is really my minnium standard le lor if i never pass this test i bet i will go crazy man...

but well getting the add maths result even though i can say that i pass but so, so what?? the mark is far too low le lor...and obviously my mood would be affected right?!!

den after school went to band and i was seriously not aware of what is happening i am just like blur blur today....

okays my mood today is really bad...very very very very bad!!

well....i really dun understand what the adults are thinking?? why cant i just choose the stuff that i like anyway there is no harm in trying right? k fine at first i thought perhaps is my attitude problem hence i changed my way of talking to u all but did u listen as well i am damn sick of it can?? when i say properly u guys say i am stubborn !!!!hey come on la there is nothing wrong with the things i am planning to do ok ....i really assure u that i wont i swear ruin my studies because of it!!!! but the prob is will u guys even agree to it??.....

2009-02-05T23:23:00.002+08:00

tired.tired.tired

i think now i have a twin le my twin is panda la...(=.-''')

omg all the dark eye rings are all appearing haix almost turining into a panda liao hahaha

dunno why everytime in sch always very very tired like want sleep like that omg once i step out of sch energy level is like wow superb high

is like i think i can fall asleep at anywhere ba as long as i am not standing haha...in class can sleep, at the hall can, in the band also can....

hey hey but just if u were wondering i not like totally sleep la just like half sleepin like blur blur like that lor haha...

hmm damn damn tired man today had pe lesson and was very very fun because first there is no running (yays!!!)

secondly we played captain's ball even though had played it for like dunno how many times but every time when we played captain it is never ever sian:):)

after that got two test , emath n geog

aiyo sian diao lor when i look at the paper i mean e-math i think i will do badly for this test....

than geog haix worse i didnt manage to finished it.....but i think in the class like got anyone who manage to finish it like that hahaha

aft that went out eat and went back for band....

haha i think i must really admit that thurs band is rather short i mean is like only 2 hours....

but is like after band i straight away rush to take 185 la cause got tuition at 7pm...

reach at around 6.45pm so walk around to buy bubble tea to tuition centre to drink haha

i thought the tuition would last till 10pm but sad case who knows that the tutor had already cancelled the 8.30-10.00pm session haix....so therefore i was the only person n i choose to go home cause is like so damn weird right having a 1-1 tuition instead of a GROUP tuition -.-'''

2009-02-04T18:51:00.003+08:00

hehe found another picture of derrick yay=)

well today was a truly bad day for me haix stress stress stress....

anyway it does not matter isnt it bad day or happy day it will pass aft 24 hours and the next day would be a brand new day isnt it??

i tried my best but still ended up with lots of blank well it has pass le anyway...wait so boring think better change to another topic.....

haha from now on i think i would only look more forward to tues i love it the most because got sci tuition...omg omg u have really no idea how much i love goin to that tuition althought it was a 3 hr tuition but hey its fun and i learn a lot stuff during that time and i was not even tired during the whole 3 hr...wow man can u imagine that in the class i was often very tired but not in the tuition....

and secondly do u know that tue is the day that i am officially off all the extra class in sch and can get to go home early:) i think is like the ONLY day i am free from all the school activites and the only day that i could rush home once the bell rings hahahaha

kk i cant online for long having tuition at 7.30pm must go study....n i must plan out a timetable i need to re-organise my time!!

2009-01-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

i cried today AGAIN!!!....

i really have no more confidence le....

just take it as i have used it all up....i am really sick n tired of having the kind of thought that i would make but it in the end when the truth come out is i didnt make it.....oh how crappy this is....

omg omg omg i am really stuck in between for choices now what to do band or tuition? how i wish i could split myself into i have just started to understand myself fully for a chapter of the add maths and now if i quit my tuition dead man!! but nono i have to depend on self i MUST and i wll complete every exercise of the add maths!!

i realised that 24 hours a day is really really NOT enough i still have so many things not done 5 jian bao and theres a chinese test tmr man.....kk nvm i will sacrifice some of my sleeping hours today!!

2009-01-23T22:27:00.003+08:00

hurray the small 'holiday' has finally arrived!!! finally...

have been looking forward so much much to this day la....is because as i have mention i can finally sleep in peace(:

today went to sch and as usual morning assembly and stuff after the flag raising omg lor mr shawal went to take the mike and say "today teachers pls excuse all students from supp class and cca..." i think after he say that statement every one was clapping our hands in joy lor espically our level.....the thought of finally able to be goin home early really makes my day:)

so in other words today school was quite short for me haha.... only have chem, physics , mt and add maths lesson for the day....and today i got back the 'test paper' for the chem revision worksheet and when i got back my paper i was like stun lor cause that paper was damn difficult and most of the qns my ans is just wild guess i would have expect myself to fail but I PASS!!! just pass or rather was because teacher was kind enough not to count one mark which means the test shld be overall 31 marks but she changed to 30 marks and because of that i pass:):):):)

night ppl goin to sleep now!!

2009-01-22T22:48:00.003+08:00

kk currently i am still studying for my chinese test....

haix i seriously cant wait for the weekends to come so that i can get to sleep more

omg lor this few days i cant believe that i actually have not yet watch till any tv?(hey is this consider a mircale haha)

sian i still have 12 jian bao not done yet man.... i think tonight perhaps have to sleep at 12 AGAIN le lor....

well there are just so many stuff to do is like we have endless stuff to do....

hmmm....today just had a physics test and if i could pass the paper i would be jumping up n down for joy man!!

tmr still got hmt test, band and all the stuff which means home late again!!

this week is like completely stay back in sch till late lor except for mon la....

tue-cip,tuition
wed-bio supp. ,tuition
thurs-band
fri-band
sat-tuition

although i'm tired but i would say its worth it this is my final year le this year i must push myself damn hard no matter how tired i am i must continue all this!!!but anyway tuition n stuff is actually not tiring at all in fact its very very very fun....

hey hey and just in case if u are wondering why the sign off part is horfan is because derrick's surname is hoh and u change a bit became hor and his fan is call horfan...kk what am i talking about in the first place ...anyway its sth like this get it?? -.-''

kk i shall just like end the post here and continue back to my revision for the chinese test!!

2009-01-22T20:20:00.003+08:00

Firstly a very very huge thank you to the creator of this blogskin....really thank u lots for creating this blogskin=) the blogskin is really beautiful.....thank u very very much:):)

i shall post another day too busy today got to study for test and homework....

2009-01-19T11:44:00.002+08:00

haix....

think i fail bio test again... sian heard that the highest mark is only 13 out of 20 sian...

now i am at home slacking .... got flu AGAIN....so got a mc haix...

staying at home rot....i feel so much like goin to school now to look for mr a. to take my results...

i dun care fail or wat i still must know my results man....

yesterday went to bugis to shop shop saw quite a no of things that i really wanted to purchase but haix no $$

den after that i shop shop around i saw hui wen, cherry and daphne....wa lao yesterday shopping is like yi bian shop yi bian sneeze la.... taking the tissue all the time so horible la....

den after that got quite tired so i went to jco coffee and donuts omg la...the dounuts even though i flu can taste anything but....the dounuts is really very nice its very very the soft man...yummy!!

haha kk this is just goin to be a very short post because i still have lots of stuff and homework to do....

random...

2009-01-04T18:00:00.003+08:00

whee!!! its great that a brand new year finally start even though i will be taking my o lvls this year but...

new year = new hopes and dreams!!!

for me i have finally been able to like let things go...not to take things so seriously which is like a good way for me...

looking back now at 2008 i simply have been too foolish....( who ask me to be a FOO :P)

well perhaps i have really take things too serious but well now i realise that wat matters is my o lvls results not my report book wat haha.....

and well 2008 keep dreaming abt goals that were simply too impossible and difficult to reach.... haha forget it man!!its all the past:):)

well 2009 new dreams appeared and every thing does too....

now i no longer insist on everything...let things take its nature course....

but now a most impt thing to do is cathch up on my maths!!omg man i can't do a lot of the qns!!!

kk perhaps update tonight.....

2008-12-29T19:38:00.003+08:00

ho ho ho ho!!! i am back le finally....

just came back from star cruise woots it is so damn fun man....

and i swear that i eat like a pig when i am on a cruise man eat n eat n eat....that is what i do for the whole day man....

breakfast, lunch, dinner n supper everyday o god bu bian zhu cai guai haha :X

this time round i went to libra at first i thought very sian but after all is fun!!! learn a lot of thing in the cruise:)

i have learn quite a few new words too through the liar's club....

shall post the words when i have more time:)

haha anyway tuition stuff should be settled....i suppose....well i will be goin back to my tuition centre again haha....

here's a pic of e the emcee on the cruise.....u guys rock:)

kk...shall post again maybe tmr see first k cause tmr got band for the whole day.....anyway i wish all of you a BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2008-12-19T15:56:00.002+08:00

freak

freak

freak!!!!

i am super super duper piss off now man!!!!

I HATE TUITIONS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!!!

WOW GREAT MAN WHOLE HOLIDAY NO NEED TO HAVE TUITION LE ISN'T THAT FABULOUS HUH?

IS LIKE NOT AS IF I DONT WANT TO HAVE TUITION IS BECAUSE MY TUTOR THEY CAN'T MAKE IT CAN???

FREAK LA!!! AND MY MUM IS LIKE KEEP SAYING ABOUT IIT!!!! IS LIKE TODAY I AM SUPPOSE TO HAVE TUITION AND THEY CANT MAKE IT TODAY WHAT CAN I DO???TAKE A GUN AND FORCE THEM COME MEH!!!

ya ya wateva la no tuition than forget about it la!!!
PISS OFF.....

2008-12-13T17:39:00.002+08:00

wth wth!!!

i don't like it man!!! my father ask me to go eat dinner with my god sister tmr and i don want!!!

its like firstly its quite werid...
secondly its boring they often talk about boring subject and i can't do anything....

argh wateva la i die die will think of more excuses to siam tmr dinner(:

anyway this blog is like soo soo soo dead might close it down since its like dead....lets see first(:

2008-11-22T23:46:00.006+08:00

sian i am seriously not in my best mood today i got scolded for like i think 1234567 times by my mum....

she is like keep on saying about the luggage stuff like why am i not packing now all these all that....

despite all the explainning that i was telling her that i still need to use the stuff on mon she still says nvm pack first...

omg how to explain to her??

and one more thing she is like saying about y must i join red camp and all sorts of stuff...

omg is like even though she doesn't disagree me to this camp...

but from the questions she ask me and replies me i know she dun like me to go for it......

but anyway its really glad that i went for red camp cause it was real fun....

through out the camp i seriously have learn quite a no of things...:)

2008-11-22T12:31:00.011+08:00

wow man RED CAMP 5 rocks man!!!but sadly to say it has just come to end....but i bet all of us enjoy it!!!

it was really fun and my tribe vikings were like the biggest tribe....cool isn't it?

kk on the first day we went to the sch of flimming and sch of humanities and we watch the puppet show and school of hummanities omg omg the sch of hummanities is seriously quite cool.....

after the 3 sch we have our lunch its around 12.45 pm we had an early lunch tat day cause its suppose to start at 1 pm

and we have kfc for our lunch and i was like "WOW!!"

k and after thjat i think we continue to visit sch of life sciences haha quite fun la...but i would say some have seen before already:)

and next after visiting the life science is like it was quite late already so we are suppose to proceed back to the convention centre by a shuttle bus...

but...it was raining and there was no shettle to the shuttle bus...

and this was wat our SLs (student leaders) do to prevent us from getting wet

this is very thoughful of our SLs la they were really very very very good man!!!they rocks!!

and ya i was in sub tribe 6 on the first day:)

-------------end of day one in red camp----------------

on the second day of red camp 5

went to school of business and accountancy , sch of enginnering and school of info com...

it was quite fun in the school of business as we get to do some hands on activties...

and in sch of info com we played some com games and we went to the recording studio...

omg i swear that that room is like soo soo freaking cool la with all the effects that we can add using the keyboard....

next went to the school of enginnering and we have to build a track that can let the ping pong ball reach roll down the slowest but must be within 30 sec.....

so it means we have to build a long long track so that the ping pong ball would roll for a longer time haha...

and my group haiz we failed guess we waste too much of time at the beginning but its alright cause my team have seriously enjoyed throughout the whole process:):)

o ya and i was in sub tribe 2 for the second day:)

----------------end of the second day-------------------

on the third day which was the last day too :'(

the vikings have to go for the cca Xperience

half of the vikings went to learn the hip hop

while another half went to learn the bracudas omg its was really cool man the bracudas...and vikings was the only group that manage to learn finish the song within the given time YAY!!!

and we went to have lunch and our lunch is pizza:)yummy!!!

and after that we revise and learn some of the cheer again and it was quite and also took a few photos during that time...

and after that we went to the convention hall and we have our cheer competition and.........SET A NEW SINGAPORE RECORDS!!!

haha is like everyone dance out the mass dance and suddenly the music stops and we are suppose to pause there for 1 min....

and we are given 3 tries and the first time was a trial, the second one someone moved so it fail....but the third one it was a success no one moved and we have success created a new singapore records:)

and after that we went to have dinner and the party starts after the dinner:):) and the red camp 5 offically ends after the party:'(anyways here are some of the photos taken during the camp!!!

the SLs are trying to teach us a new cheer on that day.......

the baracudas
my dinning group:)

pictures time with the SLs

she is toma, my first day SLs

she is janice my second day SLs:)

he is ziq my second day SLs too:)

she is eugenie the one in charge of vikings!!!

the first one is batrum and the second one is davis the first one is my SLs for my tribe on the third day and the second one is one of the SLs for vikings....

k i shall update more at night!!!

2008-11-19T20:34:00.005+08:00

i am really sick and tired of everything i am actually very happy about today de but no now any more the red camp was fun no doubt but what happen was tat my band tee is lost my father left it on the car and i can't it back!!wtf is this next week goin hk le and yet now of all the time but now i lost my stuff!!wow marvelous man wat do i wear for the hk trip if there is no more stock left??my mum was like borrow from others lor...is like doesn't she noes i dun like it!!!i am so piss off now....currently i am not feeling well now not even a single bit!!!and i only hope that there is the stock of the yellow tee in band!!!

2008-11-01T23:17:00.002+08:00

woots long long long time never blog le...

this holiday is like i am so packed full man...

goin back school for supp. class and cca all this...but seriously i like this holiday a lot... i am like very looking forward to each and everyday i also dunno why haha....

haix left quite a number of chinese paper haven do yet...all compre dun feel like doin lor...

hmm seriously mum has been 'asking' me to go back to my previous tuition centre for tuition....and i have been telling her no no i won't go back...but the fact is how i wish i can go back....i also want go back i miss all of my friends there la....

but if i go back confirm there will be a lot of things will happen...ppl will start to like gossips...nvm anyway currently tuition is quite fine...=)

haiz...i want 5 nov to reach faster after the date i will be free!!!i wont have to keep doin and thinkin of chinese :):)

argh...there is alot of add math hw waiting for me to do and mostly i think is on the double formulae....

that chap i think i sucks the most want lor....

i dun get a single thing la because that day got hmt never went for add maths supp and i miss alot of things during that supp...shall go flip through the book again and again and hope i can see the 'light' from there if not i will be dead...

and hurray!!i FINALLY know how to calculate the concentration for the titration thing...

in the past i just skip that part lor...and hand in blank..haha but now i know how to do le...and for the experimental error i also know le just memorise a few can le and see which one got use lor...

but sadly to say i am still in for the extra chem remedial....

nvmnvm can take the chance to revise the titration again:)

shall update again if i am free tmr...

2008-10-17T19:00:00.003+08:00

wa lao today is indeed a gd day for me man first day in the morning and i fall down!!!

wat the heck man so pain la....

than after that went back class got back all the remaining test paper and i am haix....disappointed!!

i am not satisfied with every subject results this year i flunk so many subjects:(

haix...than after sch went hmt until 4!!

and can u believe it during the holidays we need t0 come back everyday for the first 2 weeks!!omg...

yayness!!later will be goin for genting hahaha...can go eat again=)shall post when i am back again with pictures i promise:P!!!

-i feel very guilty for my results man wat sort of results have i got is like my math results i felt that i could have done better....next my bio haha is like i said that if i really have to drop bio i would not mind right but e truth is if i really have to drop i would mind A LOT!!!my for bio is really like omg la...haix but it is still way better than my physics...i seriously i dunno why i got that result 24/100 how 'great' it is huh...i frozed when i see e results la...is like than to my real surprise my chemistry actually get the 'first' among the science eh it used to be bio than phy than chem but now i dunno why...i felt very guilty towards my parents and my tutor.......-

2008-10-06T14:57:00.002+08:00

whoa i ALMOST broke my record today man....

i was nearly late for today is like i woke up at 4 and i study for half an hour and i went back to sleep...

next i woke up at five thirty and i wash up and i left the house at 6.15 am and i walk to the bus stop

than i saw a single deck bus and i was like ok never mind since the time is still early i shall wait for the second bus

but......who knows.....
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the next bus came at 6.40am and it was FULL

so the bus driver just drove without even stoppin at the door hence i was like wat??shit i am gonna to be late.....

than i was like shall k nvm i take another bus to sch i take to jp den to sch...

so i was like on the bus to jp was like already six forty five...

reach jp le suay 198 just went off so i go wait for 187 but is like so damn freaking long...

than while waiting another 198 came and i was like "wth y like tat???"

but lucky a while after the 198 left 187 came and i was like panicking all the way cause is like seven fifteen i still on the bus....

how early is that :x

than when i reach the bus stop is like totally no jvs ppl i was like shit...

i ran all the way i think if it was a marathon i would sure have won the first price haha jkjk:)

i was like omg i ran like mad woman than after that reach sch le i still see one or two ppl ...

so which means i am still safe than i heard the music still playing so i continued to ran all the way up the class...

running up a fourth level staircase nearly took away my life....

den i reach class le is like everyone looking at me la...

so stupid la....than after reaching the class i felt soo soo tired lor...

but the gd thing is that heng i am not late...if not need do detention sia:(

hmmm i promise that i will never ever skip another bus again!!!

haiz got to go study bio le...tonight need to burn midnight oil again le...:/

2008-09-23T22:55:00.002+08:00

sry ppl long time no update le...

this shall be a short post...n also e last post for me until eoy la but maybe will still update...

hmm just finish tuition...have not yet study any bit of chem and yet the test is just tmr...

omg i love trigo is soo soo much of fun there very very nice except for that proving thing....

hmmm on e last fri went ngee ann poly for the maths carnival...seriously it was VERY VERY VERY FUN!!!espically the logistic games:)

my team won the game and we got chocos:):)

k tats all i gtg le...

mug hard everyone!!jiayou:)

2008-09-16T21:16:00.003+08:00

coffee or tea??

help me choose one man i think i need to drink them everyday le...

o shit man i am starting to sleep in class again le:(

and yet exams are round the corner...eh i really swear that i did sleep early le and now even took afternoon nap but still feel very tired in class...

hmm why like tat??

haix I MUST STAY AWAKE IN CLASS NO MATTER WAT!!

omg omg heaven is so nice man i have just received another present on my big big day...guess wat??

not only heaven has given me add. maths paper as my b'dae present and also a bio paper too....wat a "huge and nice" present i have this year....

actually now supposingly to have chem tuition but the tutor have sth on the very last min so tuition is changed to tmr...

ar!!tmr got physics test and i am so confused...

i always mixed up angle of incidence and also the angle of the refraction:(:(:(...

haix somemore the test is the very first thing in the morning...

gtg to go study for the physics le i must pass this test!!!

2008-09-14T16:25:00.003+08:00

hmm...very tired just finish tuition and piano today...

haha today i actually forgot to bring my theory book for my piano lesson..

the forgetful me...lucky teacher never scold if not i will be dead man...

than after that rush back to tuition till now...

haix i dun want tmr to come it is the MOST boring/tired day for all the class i think so...

i love friday lesson it is the coolest man only need bring mother tongue and bio books can le:)

omg i am so out of touch with the world man is like i dun even noe e ipod itouch has been out for a time le i was still like thinking its just out only...

is very very cool la itouch!!k enough of my day dreamin le...

yayness frm next wk onwards no more cca le..

can have more time to study le...

kk tats all for now i am goin out le maybe shall update again later..:)

2008-09-09T22:14:00.003+08:00

again to say that i feel very very very moody today...

at times i would be laughin with friends at times i would be like...

is like i also don't why am i like tat haix....

end of year is coming le andi still like tat:(

seriously how i wish one day some one colud just scold me so tat i will wake up!!!

just now have had tuition and i was like very very the not myself...

had been quite quiet :x (did i say e right thing QUIET??)

dunno la just feel like y is my results and everything all this la is like so so lousy i dunno la!!

lucky just now in tuition still can control myself if not what happen in fri nite tuition might happen again....feel that i am so useless man....every time also like that...

kk enough of my naggin...SRY PPL JUST IGNORE THIS POST....

2008-09-07T21:40:00.003+08:00

sry for not bloggin since such a long time...

yayness went to watch hana yori dango final on fri very very very nice...

i like jun matsumoto!!!he rocks man!!!

i hope i hope still got more hyd coming out but looks like its impossible as they say is final le...

haha maybe if got more is about their married life perhaps...

omg omg school is startin tmr n i still have tons of chinese hw not done yet...

hope tmr got no chinese lesson...

exams are starting soon and i need to choing for my sci is like all so weak:(

shall update till here the next post shall be longer nites!!

2008-08-23T17:47:00.005+08:00

Whee finally this week is OVER which means all the test is over :):)

on wed went to collect the muffins and each person have to take 100 which is like omg sooo heavy la...

than after collecting the stuff went to 711 to buy stuff with wankee and anginn and i bought this:
omg is nice lor...

but the price also like super "nice"...
and still got bought the milo nuggets...yummmy...

On thurs:
went to do thurs went to do sell stuff during the low sec and upper sec recess

i was like omg later got test than dun have time to study le...haiz...

but overall still a little bit fun la...
than after recess is over go back class got hmt test which is lucky i pass heng ar....

than later have e-math test and i was omg omg how come is so hard one...

hope can pass the test:)

after school went for band and we have no room to play not even in the band room cause got meeting and all the oral going on so went to 3D classroom instead...

i was sooo sooo damn tired la that during the ten mins break i really fall into a sleep

if no one call me i might be sleepin there for hours man...

next after band just went home and eat, study and sleep

On FrI:

was sort of a short day to me lesson was short and sweet:)

was planning after sch wanted to go pack the slippers but is like got ppl havin test so cannot packed:(

haix so later went opp sch to eat and come back for sectionals...

and after that went home for chem tution and my tutor teaches me the oxidation and reduction chapt omg i super super love that chap is soooo fun!!

than tuition drag and ends at ten forty and yet i didn't know lor(first time sia)...

after tuition chatted on the phone for a while and sleep:)

SaT:
i almost can't wake up for band cause i forgot to change my phone out of the silent mode

than morning the alarm only got vibrate den no sound...

but lucky still managed to woke up...

went for band from 7.45 am-2.30 pm and have tutoring for hours in between..

than after lunch went back for combine and i almost sleep in the band room cause today has got a good weather ma...haha

and than later went out to eat with friends and after that went back home...

later should be going out again for dinner:)

i seriously regret taking this cip project if time can turn back again
i wish that i have never take up this project to do...
because of this project i lost a lot a lot of things...
also because of this damn project i stress myself out too much...
now i understood why i cried on that particular fri...
is not because of really because of studies but is because of this!!
this project has cause me to be soo moody...
and because of it i nearly cried a few times this week thank god YB there to cheer me up...
i really hated this project so much that i wish i can back out of this project right now...
at first i thought it would be fun but no it WASN'T at all...
i only wish that project will end faster....

2008-08-19T23:46:00.003+08:00

haix now choinging for bio...

i think tmr will be even worse hmt...soo many thing to study...

haix...tired sia but nvm for the sake of next wk one wk holiday i endure!!

feel so gulity last fri man...i almost fall asleep during my tuition lor

is like e qns ask wat is the WRONG method for....

and the sotong me thought is correct method...and is not just for 1 qns is a lot...

just feel so tired lor haha perhaps is because of flu x)

i can't wait for this fri to come man can rest...sian leh...nono shld be next fri so tat can rest even longer....i want to go genting next week la...but dunno if my mum can make it a not...i want to eat the ice cream!!super yummy!!

ok enough of my craps got to go study bio or maybe sleep le nite ppl!!

2008-08-19T19:40:00.004+08:00

time passes sooo sooo fast for today and mr anand is not in sch today hence got a free period

started to do my math hw during the free period and i finished it during that period:)

shit man tmr is the bio test and i am like still so blur in it...and teacher never come today...nvm self-study

got back chem test results today and...

i fail...nvm only 10 ppl pass only...

this week is wk FULL of test man....plus the e-math test which i dreaded to have is coming soon is on the chpt 8 & 9...

i totally feel so lost for that two chpts man....hope can pass this test i DON'T WANT to flunk my maths....

ok tats all for now got to go for tuition shall update later if got e time:)